#ILYYY LMAOOO

[motochiri]

I think this year I've learned to appreciate Gaba more. U da best, fuck them Dopamine, Serotonin, Noradrenaline, and all those bitches. I'm a Gaba stan

THIS IS THE CUTEST ASK I'VE EVER GOTTEN IN MY LIFE PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEE

[mrsoharaa]

it may just be me being in my head but like...I feel like my writing has been shit as of late. idk, it could just be my stupid mind playing tricks on me or whatever but yeah. idk. : X

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

AHDJAJSJANEHEHD DW I NEARLY CRIED WRITING IT I AM SUCH A SUCKER FOR LOVERS/CLOSE FRIENDS PARTING WAYS 😭😭😭 honestly though if he told me he was happy for me i would do a complete 180 and i mean I would whip around on my heel and I would literally hold him so tight I’m not even jk 🙁 giggles YES i had to top it off with beabadoobee !!! Don’t you know already stsg fans can’t be happy !!!! Okokokok to apologise for the sadness I have brought more poly stsg because I’m stsg anon and I can’t go a day without thinking of them 💪💪 .poly stsg x reader who’s also a sorcerer but is just a complete ray of sunshine. As in the world is exploding in front of their eyes but they’re js like ‘oh that’s unfortunate :(‘ and just generally tries to have a positive and optimistic outlook on the world n be kind to those around them (My fav type of people) but the funny thing is that wanting to be a sorcerer probably means that you stayed with satoru when the incident™️ happened — So imagine stsg seeing each other years later all cold and >:| but you were kept behind for whatever reason and they’re in the middle of talking to each other when you come bounding up behind satoru like “oh sorry I’m la- OHH HEYYY SUGUUUUuuu :D” ASGHAGSHA 😭😭 no because to be perfectly honest that would be me in that situation because I could care less that he left or that I haven’t seen him in 10 years ITS SUGU??? ILL TAKE THAT W THANK YOUUUU 🤩🤩🤩 ahdhs i feel like there are so many possible scenarios with poly stsg x sunshine reader aughhh!!! Hehehdhxhs thank u for listening to my brain rambles once again :𝟥 — YOU KNOW WHO (stsg anon) !!

STSG ANON MY BELOVED MY ANGEL first of all i’m so so sorry for how long this took me to answer T_T uni has been uni-ing lately …… AS ALWAYS U FEED ME SO WELL THOUGH pls know i always smile so wide reading ur asks !! :’3 they bring me sooo much joy i am opening your scalp gently and kissing your beautiful genius brain <33

AND GOSHHHHH THIS IS SUCH A SWEET SCENARIO PLS 😭😭😭😭 I LOVEEEE THIS SO MUCH this reader reminds me so much of haibara.. like i firmly believe this is how he would’ve acted with geto HAIBARA ASIDE THOUGH… this is just. so tasty. 😵‍💫😵‍💫 so sweet !!!

like .. a reader like this would completely fuck up stsg’s attempts at acting hostile towards each other because they’re just so sincere??? just happy to see geto again!! and i think it would hurt gojo and geto both because you’re still the same as before, you make them feel like you’re all still in high school, but you’re not and it hurts :((( i can see geto enjoying it though… he just gets all soft knowing you don’t hate him. he assumed that both you and satoru would but you welcome him back so warmly!! makes him want to pinch your cheeks the way he always used to <33 i think he would jokingly but not really so jokingly suggest that you join his side and you’re like… :0 PHDJFJ just all sweet and apologetic because you want to be with him and you appreciate the offer but you like being at jujutsu high…. and he just kinda chuckles because it’s such a casual reply. it’s so you. it makes him feel warm.

(… i also feel like this reader would be very good for stsg because, again, their sincerity and sunshiney attitude would essentially force them both to be sincere too and i think that’d clear up a lot of misunderstandings between them.. yes i am suggesting that this reader + satoru could’ve gotten suguru back i know it’s delusional but idc reader would go up to bleeding dying suguru and boop his nose and ask him to come back to them and he would stfu and listen <3333)

[quinnigallagherjones]

hey hey milo!!! what is one thing you always WISH people would ask you when you reblog an ask game like this, and what's your answer to whatever question that is? ;)

HEY ARWEN MY BELOVED 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

one thing i wish people would ask me is about my favourite video games honestly !!! i love gaming so much and i am always down to talk to people about video games :') sooooo with that being said i am now going to go on about some of my all time favourite games !!!

the last of us - this goes for both games but oh MAN when i played the first game for the first time back in 2017 when i first started playing single player games properly it was such a surreal experience !!!!! i am so glad more people are getting introduced to the game now bc of the show and it makes me so happy to see people getting attached to ellie and joel as much as i have been for years now !!!

uncharted - once again this goes for all of them but in particular u4 and lost legacy !!! what can i say i am a naughty dog simp, they make amazing games and amazing characters !!!!

marvel's spider-man + miles morales - insomniac peter parker is honestly one of my favourite adaptations of him like when people fight about the live action spider-mans i am sat here like INSOMNIAC SPIDER-MAN IS RIGHT THERE !!!! the storyline in both spider-man and miles morales is SO DAMN GOOD and it's one of the smoothest games i have ever played honestly !!! i am so excited for spider-man 2 later on in the year !!!!

the legend of zelda games - i didn't want to pick just one but some of my fave ones are twilight princess, wind waker and breath of the wild of course !!!! i haven't started playing tears of the kingdom yet but i am so goddamn excited to play it !!!!

jedi fallen order - another game that is so damn good story wise !!! i don't know if you can tell but i very much love games that have an amazing storyline and this is definitely one of them !!! i haven't had a chance to play jedi survivor yet but my GOD am i excited to see my boy cal kestis again <33

the quarry + until dawn - putting these together as they are both made by supermassive games but mannn i love a good "ur choices have consequences" type game hahaha, having to make split second decisions that will ultimately affect what ending you end up with is THE SHIT !!!!

once again i will stop bc i don't want to make this post really long hahah but some honourable mentions include: horizon zero dawn, the batman arkham games, the wolf among us, life is strange, the walking dead, journey and a short hike

sleepover asks !!

[lovedrruunk]

Hii! your vi and jinx headcanons had be dying laughing like i was actually in tears, any chance you could do Sevika or Caitlyn ones? :3

feel free to ignore this!

Random Sevika headcanons…

HIHIHI !!! Finally working on requests !! I'm actually in the middle of writing some cait ones which I'll post SOON... ILYYY HOPE U LIKE THESE!!!!!

Public nightmare. Going out with her is so humiliating but unlike Jinx it's not because she's weird it's because she's a FUCKING BITCH!!!!!! She's so incredibly full of herself. Walks the streets like she owns the place and will randomly get in fights just so she can win and impress you. Like it'll be some poor guy just minding his own business and she'll walk by and shove his face into the wall while staring at u intensely... it's actually really scary. She is a customer service workers #1 fear, the second you two walk into a store or a restaurant suddenly everyone's on lunchbreak. Never tips. One mean mug from her could make a gay starbucks barista cry.

Constantly grumbling about something. Loves to complain about EVERYTHINGGGG. The line at the bar, the weather, her shoulder pain, it never ends. Sometimes you can't tell if she's actually upset or just grumpy for fun. "Why is this drink so weak? It might as well be water." Ok then why did you CHUG THE WHOLE THING AND ORDER 2 MORE???

Randomly puts stuff on high shelves just to mess with you. This lady is huge so if she knows you can’t reach something, she’ll put it on a higher shelf on purpose just to watch you struggle. This stems from 2 things. 1. Her being a bitch that loves to mess with you and make you mad because she thinks it's funny, and 2. her constant need to be the one to "save" you.

Loves being your dyke in shining armor LMAOOO. Like I said she likes being needed in a sense. If you have a problem or need something done and she isn't the first person you ask for help she'll genuinely get offended. Like how dare you not immediately come to her for help knowing she's always down to help you (when she feels like it)

Always wins arguments (not because she's right). Sevika never loses an argument. She’s too good at staying calm and turning things around on you, even when she’s clearly wrong. The way she knowingly and shamelessly gaslights you just makes you let it go in the end. "I can't understand you when you're being this emotional." while she has this shit eating grin on her face oh my god.

Has a short temper... She holds the world record for most pet peeves ever. Dumb questions, pointing out the obvious, snoring, just to name a few. I said this in my red flags post but genuinely dumb questions will PISS HER OFF SO BAD... Asking her "Are you awake?" when she literally got into bed 2 minutes ago and her eyes are OPEN. Walking in like "You home?" when literally WHO ELSE WOULD BE THERE??? She'd rather just kick you out honestly.

(TY @maneskinwh0re for these examples <333)

my requests r officially open btw so feel free to ask for something (^_−)☆ BUT PLEASE KEEP IN MIND IM ACTUALLY A RLLY SLOW WRITER....

[taylormarieee]

IDK IF YOUR REQUESTS ARE OPEN, BUT I HAVE AN IDEA!! WHAT IF THERE WAS A READER THAT LIKE WAS IN THE CIRCUS?? LIKE THEY DONT HAVE TO BE A RUNAWAY BUT LIKE THEYRE IN A CIRCUS, AND LIKE LUKE GOES TO THE CIRCUS THAT THEY ARE IN AND LIKE IDK HES ON A QUEST OR SMTH AND IDK IDK. AND I DONT HAVE ALL RHE DETAILS BUT THEY COULD GO BACKSTAGE OR SMTH 🤭😏 AND THEN THERE COULD BE FLUFF AT THE END?? ILYYY

- ��� (a simple fly on the wall 😗)

LMAOOO! This was too cute, I love you too! You are my slutty little fly on the wall pookie! Ofcc I have a idea of what your trying to go with and I got you babes. Can be found in my masterlist as "Daredevils and One night stands"

You were an acrobat. You did cool tricks and were very flexible. You enjoyed working at the circus. It brought you peace and made your blood run hot in your veins.

Everybody called you a daredevil, sometimes even a clown with the stuff you did. You were a goofball and goofed around everyday. Playing with your life on that tightrope. But you didn't care.

Not one bit. It was exciting for you, not fearful. So when you had your next show tonight you decided to be extra dangerous. You decided you were going to walk on the tight rope with fire.

"Are you ready?" Your partner for the stunt asked. You gave him a big smile and nodded. "Hell yea I'm ready!" You say juggling both the unlit torches in your hand.

What you weren't expecting was that there was this fine ass boy in the stands that you could see from backstage. He had a scar on his eye, black curls, and the most beautiful smile you've ever seen.

His lips so full and pink, and god you wanted to suck on them all night. His jawline was immaculate and his facial features were just god like.

As if Zeus crafted him himself. You stared at him and soon he looked in your direction and made eye contact. You smiled and waved and he smirked and waved back.

'God what the hell were you doing'. You internally face palmed and rolled your eyes. You heard someone call your name. It was jake, your partner for the stunts.

"Ok so after the clowns go, we go up there and close out the show. You'll be balancing on my shoulders while I walk and you hold the fire. Your then going to flip the torches in the air, do a handstand on my shoulders and then I will catch the torches, got it?" He asks with a savage smirk on his face.

"I was born ready baby!" You laugh as you two do your signature handshake before preparing by getting dressed and getting your props ready.

After the show your met with everyone backstage, each and everyone of you congratulating each other on a great job.

You tie your curls up into a bun and make your way to your dressing room. On the way there your stopped by the same cute boy that was in the audience.

'How'd he get down here?' You thought. "Hey, I'm Luke and I just wanted to say your performance was bat shit crazy, but I liked it." He says with a charming smile.

You get to see his features up close and damn was he fine. Sexist boy you've ever seen. His scar looks so much better up close and his plump lips are so pink.

His smile is amazing with pearly whites radiating and shining under the dim light.

"Hi, uhm thank you! I am a bit of a daredevil so you know... Would you like to come in?" you ask with a polite smile on your face.

He nods and you look down at his lips with a smile. 'God I wonder how his lips would feel on my pu-' You shake your thoughts away before they get too far and open the door to your trailer.

He lets you go in first and then he goes in and closes the door. 'Wow hot and a gentleman!' You thought.

"Welcome to my humble abode. Hope you like it." You say with a laugh. He chuckles with you and sets himself down on the couch.

"I usually don't allow people in here, especially strangers but for you I've made an exception." You say walking to the mini fridge to grab a soda.

He gets up and comes up behind you. You don't feel his presence at first until you stand up back still faced him and you hear his voice.

"Glad you did. Wouldn't have gotten to meet the girl I've been feigning for all night." He whispers as he wraps a hand around your waist.

Your eyes go wide as you spin around noticing he's pinned you against the counter. You gulp and put the two soda's you pulled out on the countertop.

"I-Is that right... h-how lucky am I." You say nervously as his eyes rake over your body like a scanning machine. His eyes are darker than before and he looks intrigued yet intimidating. Your a lot shorter than him so he towers over you extremely.

"Wanna make you scream for some odd reason. Like I'm addicted to you and I need you. So why don't you be a good girl and bend over so I can beat that pretty pussy up hm?" He says lowly. His voice demanding and seductive.

You obey and bend over against the cold countertop and let Luke rip off all articles of clothing that belong to you.

You whimper out at the feeling of his fingers sending small light smacks to your ass. He rubs his fingers along your pussy lips and gathers all your wetness before trailing his fingers up to your clit.

He rubs his fingers in a figure 8 motion sending waves of pleasure through your body.

"Oh f-fuck Luke! Right there, that feels s-so good, mhmm!" You whimper out as your eyes roll to the back of your head.

"Ya gonna cum baby? hmm? Just off my fingers? How pathetic." He degrades. You whine as your thighs shake. He's knuckles deep and your begging for a release.

He pulls his fingers out and licks them clean before you can even feel the sweet sensation of your release. "Ohh Luke c'mon! Pleasee!" You whine out hearing him chuckle behind you.

"Oh come on princess, you don't even know me. You want this badly huh?" He says chuckling at how desperate you are.

"Well it's not my fault," you starts as you turn to face him pointing your finger in his chest. "You came in my trailer, touching on me and getting me riled up saying how you wanted to pound my pussy. So live up to what you said and fuck me!" You say in aroused frustration.

The need to cum getting to your head and making you dizzy. He smirks and bends you over. He runs his lengthy, girthy cock through your soaked folds and you whimper.

“Gosh just put it in alre- ahhh!” You cry out as Luke thrusts his cock inside your tight walls.

His thrusts hard and fast as he rams his big fat cock in you.

“yea? Hmm? Shut you up real quick! Like this dick in your walls baby?” He says with a smirk on his face.

you whine out moaning at the feeling. You claw at his bicep feeling the muscle flex under your fingertips.

“ahh gon gonna cum Lukey, I’m gonna cum so hard! Can I cum please?” You beg feeling your orgasm approaching faster than you thought.

He chuckles darkly behind you and before he can even answer your door flies open causing Luke to pause his abuse on your cunt as he looks at the door revealing your stunt partner standing there in awe.

Your eyes wide as you freeze as you’ve just been caught having sex in your trailer by your best friend…

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A/N: part two???? Hope yall enjoyed! mwah💋

[tojiscrack]

life if kamo never existed in the first place

Okay ik i bully you over kamo TAKINGGG. TEARING. DISTROYI NG EVERYTHING but 1) you write each scene with kamo so good thag it genuinely ANGERS ME (in a good way if that makes sense) bc WHAT DO YOU MEAN KAMO IS TAKING UP ALL OF MERMAIDS TIME??? but then you have to remember it's for the plot AND THE END RESULT WILL BE AMAZING

Also i hope you're doing okay ik ur taking a hiatus AND I JUST WANT YOU TO TAKE TIME FOR URSELFFF BC YK U DESERVE IT BC UR AMAZING. I just hope that this year started great and is great for you. i feel like ive been lacking JUSTTTT a but in checking up on u... bc (as a STUPID AMERICAN) things have been pretty crazy for me

AHHH IDK HOW TO END THIS ILYYY BYE

IASOJSJDKS GIRLYPOP 😭 idk why i get surprised every time kamo gets hate from you. i expected it since that anon came along and shipped kai x y/n

‘you write each scene with kamo so good that it genuinely ANGERS ME’ — 😋 no bc why did this make me giddy LMAOOO, buttttt yeah, you’re gonna have to tolerate it for a WHILEEEEE. like a WHILE. like slow burn is slow burning.

‘Also i hope you're doing okay ik ur taking a hiatus AND I JUST WANT YOU TO TAKE TIME FOR URSELFFF BC YK U DESERVE IT BC UR AMAZING’ — 😫🫶🏽

you deserve all the kisses in the world ughhhhh 🥴🩵🩵🩵

‘i feel like ive been lacking JUSTTTT a but in checking up on u...’ — AHHH NO YOU HAVEN’T DWW <3 i don’t expect anyone to practically live in my inbox, seeing as i’m so busy nowadays that checking it every once in a while already leaves a build up of asks ‘cause i don’t do it quick enough 😭💞

‘(as a STUPID AMERICAN) things have been pretty crazy for me’ — girl what’s up with the tt ban? 😭 tt felt so different without you guys LMAOOO, and james charles came in giving us a whole debrief of what happened on the other side. WE ONLY KNEW TT WAS BANNED 2 HRS BEFORE THE INITIAL BAN DATE ‘CAUSE HE BYPASSED THE SYSTEM AND TOLD US 💀

it felt like we survived an apocalypse and he was the last one on ur end that lived 🌝

idk how to end this either sooooo…

[nanaslutt]

1. AWWWW THANK YOU I APPRECIATE IT <333

2. i think i need to get a bigger house… me and my 500 wives are getting a little cramped BUT I ACCEPT

3. HEHE i’m assuming this was from when i was in the hospital but ilyyy!!

4. this is the best ask ever LMAOOO i have many personalities

5. I LOVE YOUUUU!!! you take care of urself as well ^.^

6. if u ask in secret who my fav wife is i’ll tell u but u can’t tell the others, they might get jealous

7. YIPPEEE THANK YOU

8. OH GOD I DO!! I DO!!

9. FUCK YEAHHHH!!! happy to carry the uraume kisser fandom and spread it as much as i possibly can

[svnflowermoon]

lucylucylucy CONGRATSSS THATS INSANE AND SO SO DESERVED!!!

could i please purchase the rise and fall of a midwest princess and melodrama?? <33

DANDY DANDY DANDY THANK YOU SO MUCH ANGEL ILYYY MWAH

rise and fall of a midwest princess

hmm okay so you give very strong vibes when it comes to this idk what they are maybe likeee a cute little date where you go to a cafe or get bubble tea or something and then you go and have a picnic or something?? i'm not sure but you'd both talk a lot about literally everything and maybe you'd go thrifting or go to a record store or something?? i feel like it'd be a very fun date and it'd feel very comfortable and natural for u

melodrama

you're very much friends to lovers in my opinion no doubt about it!!

okayy so you give MAJOR love letters vibes, like you'd exchange love letters/poems (i wonder why i think that lmaooo) and i feel like you'd make lots of sweet homemade gives and stuff, no specific occasion just because you want to. you also give like a best friend kind of love, where it literally feels like soulmates. you also give like playing guitar for them/with them vibes!! overall i think a very cute and wholesome love but also with a bit of poetic anguish in there like as in phoebe and mitski yk??? also also also playing with hair idk that just came to my mind idk why but i think it fits!!! anyway it'd be very sweet and lovely just like you <33

[geodetojoy]

HIYA LUX :D

it’s assumption ask headcanon time babeyyy!! now let’s see hrmm

1. you love (specific) video games but don’t play often or as much as you’d like (pspsps we should play games together)

2. now im thinking about games and you seem like you’d main link OR lucario in super smash bros and i cannot for the life of me figure out why lmao. if not, who’s your main?? mines kirby :)

3. you’d consider yourself an ambivert! i simply have a hard time seeing you ascribing to only intro/extrovert

this was harder than i thought lol but HOPE YA HAD FUN ILYYY :D <33

ELLO :DDDD

Ok wtf these are all scarily accurate LMAOOOO

1- I genuinely only have access to a switch (on my brothers account) and my laptop that only has the ram for a handful of like flash games despite having several steam games downloaded :,)))))

But on my switch I play minecraft and on my laptop I play that’s not my neighbor (nightmare mode exclusively) and infinite craft, all of which I have had extreme hyperfixations periods on that either burn out way too fast or I don’t have the time to indulge (I miss my minecraft staminaaaaa I had one CRAZY world going last year and I think what drew me out of it was the fact that aFTER THREE DIFFERENT FUCKING STRONGHOLDS I STILL DIDNT FIND A S I N G L E END PORTAL WTF IS THAT BAD LUCK RAHHHHHH)

BUT I am working on getting an actual computer in the following year SO AS SOON AS THAT HAPPENS I WOULD LOVE TO PLAY GAMES WITH YOU :DDDDD

OR PERHAPS SWITCH FRIENDS IF YOU HAVE ONE IVE BEEN MEANING TO GET MY OWN ACC AND I COULD TECHNICALLY DO THAT NOW

2- UR SO RIGHT LUCARIO MY BOY <3333333

I actually have a few mains I rotate around, usually between peach, zero suit samus, lucario, and greninja, but lucario is like my main-main thats crazy that you guessed that LMAOOO

3- I absolutely used to see myself as an introvert but that was mostly bc I didn’t really have anyone to be extroverted around but since ive kinda found my people I’m DEFINITELY an ambivert!!! (I’ve also been kinda forced into extroverted-ness recently bc I got hired at like a genuine (albeit teeny tiny) amusement park as a ride operator (which I did NOT apply to be THANK YOU VERY MUCH) so ive gotta put on that people-person mask like constantly lmaooo so fake it till you make it ig)

TYSMMMM THIS WAS SO FUN IF YOU COME UP WITH ANY MORE ID LOVE TO HEAR THEM :DDDDD LOVE YA MADS

Also this took so fucking long to type bc I got a cup of milk and my cat has been absolutely harassing me to try to get it she’s knocked over half of the stuff on my desk what is wrong with her

[nickykloe5]

My little archive of interactive fics>333

i'm just going to use this post as an archive, for me but also for other people to discover those amazing ifs!!!!

First I'm going to list my fav fics and then those that don't have a demo but are worth waiting for.

this is going to be a long post so bear with me..

First of all my all time favorite:

Mind Blind by @mindblindbard : to this day, I think i've read it like 10+ times lmaooo. Anyways I absolutely love the premise and love the romance alsooo. Rosy you have my heart..

Wayhaven Chronicles by @seraphinitegames : this is also one of my favoritesss. The author is prob my number 1 in romance. I loved Mason and Adam.

The Golden Rose Book 1&2 by @anathemafiction : The pacing, the story, the characters. SO GOOD. Loved Alyssa.

Defiled Hearts: The Barbarian by @defiledheartsblog : Marcus you are prob one of my favorites ROs ever!!

Infamous by @infamous-if: The author just posted Ch 2, and I already love the story!!! Orion ilyyy<33

Attollo by @attollogame : Loved ittt. Check it out. The Ros and the story are so amazing!!!

Fields of Asphodel by @chrysanthemumgames: Absolutely loved thisssss!!!! I liked all the ROs.

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Now fics worth waiting for that don't have a demo

The Do-over by @thedoover-if: Go see it for yourself because the premise is very good!!!!

Magici: Worldstar by @magici-if : Really interesting premise, basically there is magic and you are going to join a show together w other contestants. Harley and Martin im waiting for you.

The price by @theprice-if : I'm so waiting for this!! Basically you are not the star, but the assistent to that big star. Things change when you wake up and omg you are married to that very star!

Faded by @faded-if : Noah and Elijah im going to read it in one go when it comes out eheh.

Gonna add more later as I discover more!!!!!!

[cinnamoodles]

🍾 — bubbly soda with steven Conklin?

we love stevie

ynssupersecretspamm

DEB BALL DATE ( we’re getting drunk ) 🪩

bellyball AYYY that’s my girl (and my brother but we won’t cheer for him)

-> sconklin05 you’re actually stupid belly

-> bellyball this is sibling abuse im reporting you

-> connonball you guys are so immature

-> ynssupersecretspamm but you love us ofc

-> jerebearr he only loves belly actually

-> bellyball aww ly too con

-> sconklin05 he fainted lmao

ynssupersecretspamm

predeb (ft. stevie reading ) @sconklin05 @connonball @bellyball

jerebearr nERDDDDD

-> ynssupersecretspamm the boy goes to princeton ofc he’s a nerd

-> sconklin05 not you too babe?

-> jerebearr ooh are we in babe territory now??

-> ynssupersecretspamm literally k!ll yourself jere

-> i.am.tay ur so mean @ynssupersecretspamm

connonball we look so good stevia

-> sconklin05 darling i know you’re a health nut but you can still call people sweetheart

-> bellyball darling?? sweetheart??

-> ynssupersecretspamm we’re not talking ‘bout stevia??

-> jerebearr you guys are more gay than me and i made out with a dude once

yn.yln.06

gentlemen!!

laurelparkwriting.official awww they’re all grown up now :))

-> jerebearr not me??

-> susannahf12 you’re always such a grown up jere

-> jerebearr thx maaa

connonball we’re so awesome @sconklin05

-> sconklin05 thank you darling

-> connonball anytime sweetheart

-> yn.yln.06 don’t start this up bruh!!

sconklin05 looking zesty bros

-> bellyball zesty?? changing ur contact name immediately

-> yn.yln.06 lmaooo changed it to zesty boyfie?

ynssupersecretspamm

we are ballin we are fearless we are boyfie’d up on birthday din

sconklin05 happy birthday darling ❤️

-> ynssupersecretspamm oh so now im darling??

-> bellyball fight fight fight

-> connonball let’s be honest steven would lose he’d just be staring into yn’s eyes and get punched or smn

-> sconklin05 this u?? 👩🤜 👱‍♂️

jerebearr HAPPY BIRTHDAY YN!!!

-> ynssupersecretspamm AWWWW ILYYY TY

-> jerebearr we’re getting so drunk

-> bellyball IM MAKING MY SPECIAL POMMY JUICE

-> sconklin05 spare us please @bellyball

[here2bbtstrash]

same as moni here, I’ll try not to list your whole blog🥴🤣

First of all my man, the most emotionally mature fratboy king, the loml The Spins jk����💘 we love him and may we all manifest him in our lives🕯️🕯️

Then we have TSOYB 😍💘 honestly I think you could post this as a book, it is sooooo good and one of my comfort fics😭 the way you wrote this jimin is a true dream and I’ll be forever grateful for him!!!💜💜

Guys. DEEP. END. NAMJOON. !!!!!!!! If this isn’t one of your faves, why are you even on tumblr??? Be real!! 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 it’s a monthly re-read iykwim👀🤪❤️‍🔥

One of the best 3somes in fucking tumblr Two in One 🤤🤤 is it the crazy smut? Is it the jihope pairing?? Idk but whoa goooodddd shittttt and while we’re at it, Compromise deserves to be here bc twilight inspired taekookxreader 3some? Sorry not sorry but you fried my brain with that one, I had to put it here!! 🤤🤤🔥

Last and deffffff not least, LDOMLT💜💜 (I’m not demanding updates or pressuring you to do it or anything and I’m sorry I’m advance if it comes out like that🥺) not only I love this series with my whole heart and it’s one of my faves, but it’s how I got to know your blog! 🥹💜And also the baby star candy that jk is in here has me in a chokehold and and and I’ll stop bc we’re not here to ramble about him lmaooo

I can’t choose one!!! Deal with it!! And that’s on you!! bc you’re too good of a writer!! Ilyyy 💜💜💜💜💜

JAZ WHEIUFHSJDKFDFG THIS IS SO SWEET I DO NOT DESERVE YOU 🥺

you named so many of the works i'm proudest of 🙈 AND THEN THROWING COMPROMISE IN THERE IS CRAZY LMAOOOOO that is the definition of a crack fic and i'm amazed anyone enjoyed it because legit what was i on when i wrote that jskdfhdfjgldf 💀

i adore you so much and i so deeply appreciate you taking the time to write something so thorough and kind!!!!! you're an angel fr 🥰

inquiring minds want 2 know: what's your favorite story of mine? 🎤

[anikaluv]

I LOVE YOUR WORKS IM GONNA BANG MY HEAD ON RHE WALL

AHHH LMAOOO ILYYY <3

[taintedcigs]

HELLO I AM BACK. AND SO IS MY COMPUTER BITCH. LEMME DIVE INNNNN.

The smile on his face that could never be directed at you, is directed at her. The love and the longing in his eyes that always lingers when she is around. She who had stolen his heart from the very first moment they saw each other. She who had always kept his heart even when she left him for the one she is smiling at now. She who will always be the one he will look at. 

HWAT THE FUCK ANDY. I JUST STARTED READING IT AND WE'RE ALREADY FUCKING UNDER ATTACK. DUDE.

Right. You’re here because of him. You don’t know why he feels the urge to drag you along to every group hang out. No one wants you around, you don’t even think that Robin wants you here, she barely talked to you since you came here. And the longer you sit in Steve’s living room, with an untouched can of coke on the table in front of you, surrounded by people who most likely cannot stand you or your presence, you wish more and more that Jason should have dragged you down with him.  STOP YOURE MAKING ME SO FUCKING SAD IM GONNA DIE.

You don’t belong here, you don’t belong anywhere.  BUT SHES SO GODDAMN RELATABLE OH MY GOD. I FEEL YOU BLONDIE. I SEE YOU BLONDIE. IAM YOU BLONDIE!!!!

You fail to notice the disapproving look on Steve’s face, the way he tensely straightens up, slowly getting up as his brows knit together, more and more, watching in disbelief how you make your way over to Argyle.  OH MY GOD LITTLE ANGEL STEVIE IS SO WORRIED SHUT UP EVERYONE SHUT UP.

“She can’t smoke or drink! Her doctor said it loud and clear, and I warned you before!” He points at him. STOOOOOOOOPPPP. HE WARNED HIM BEFORE?!?! THIS LITTLE IN LUV IDIOT. HE JUST DOESNT KNOW IT YET!!!

“Wow, you do worry about me, Harrington. You weren’t lying.”  EVEN I FEEL GIDDY OVER HERE EVERYOEN SHUT UP GOD I LUV THEM SOSOMUCH!!!!

“Sit your ass down, Blondie and drink your goddamn coke, don’t even think about weed or–” “No weed, no beer, just fucking coca cola, got it, mom,” you roll your eyes at him and slump back in your previous seat, crossing your arms over your chest. LMAOOO THEY R MAKING ME CRY. ALSO AT LEAST SHE CAN HAVE COKE.

“Goddamn brat,” he mumbles under his breath. “I heard that.”  “Good,” he snaps at you. OH FUCKING HELL NOW I NEED HIM TO SAY THIS IN VERY VERY DIFFERENT CONTEXTS. FUCK FUCK FUCK.

Sometimes you feel like a creep, watching him and adoring everything about him, from his sun kissed skin, to his beautiful eyes, to his perfect hair, to that one smile that he blesses only those around him that he cares about – something that you will never get. GIRL I DONT THINK YOU'RE A CREEP I'D GAWK AT STEVE TOO. but that last fucking line?!?? we're back to sad again JFCCC HELPME.

“Keep your pity to yourself, Blondie. I’d rather never see you again than see you when I don’t have to.” okay im just gonna kms EVERYONE ABORT.

“Listen uh, that was mean,” he starts, now struggling to look into your eyes. He squeezes his eyes shut for a moment, tugging at his hair. “I shouldn’t have said that.” UHUHHHHHHH IM GONNA FREAKING CRY.

“Bye, Steve.” GOODBYE NOW I WILL CRY. You turn the other way, towards Hawkins cemetery. and noW IWILL CRY EVEN MORE.

OH FUCK ANDY THIS CHAPTER WAS SOOO GOOD. I LOVE THE WAY U WRITE THEIR DIALOGUE. HOW FAST IT SWITCHES FROM FLIRTY, ANNOYANCE, FULL MEANNES AND JUST FUCKING GUT-WRENCHINGLY SAD.

BEAUTIFULLY WRITTEN AS AL-FUCKING-WAYS. I CANNOT WAIT FOR MORE ILYYY <3

Dancing with our hands tied | S.H.

Chapter two ⭐︎ I want you to notice, when I'm not around

Warnings: angst! mean!Steve, unrequited feelings, one sided feelings, mentions of Steve being in love with Nancy, mentions of death, allusions to suicidal thoughts, mentions of weed and alcohol

Pairing: Steve Harrington x fem!reader

Word count: 4k

Author's note: I promise, it's gonna get so much better soon, get ready for some much more angst in the next chapter, it's gonna hurt. @hellfire--cult thank you for helping me as always, you're the bestest!!!

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The living room is crowded, at least it seems that way to you. You aren’t used to being around so many people. You didn’t want to come here, but you had no choice when both Eddie and Robin had showed up at your house earlier today and practically forced you out of the house.

Now you sit here, sinking deeper and deeper into Steve Harrington’s couch, feeling uncomfortable and out of place. You’re playing with the loose string on the hem of your shirt as you look around the room. Robin is snacking on the m&m’s Eddie had brought as she’s looking through the pictures Jonathan had taken of her and Nancy just now. Eddie is out on the patio, smoking a cigarette and talking to Argyle who will leave for California in two days. Jonathan is staring at the screen watching some music video that is playing on the MTV channel, his pupils are blown and his eyes seem heavy, he is high out of his mind and for once, Nancy doesn’t seem to care, with her legs thrown over his thigh, she’s sipping on the beer that Steve handed to her a few minutes back, she is talking to Robin, unaware of the set of eyes on her. 

You restrain the eye roll as you look at him. 

Steve is sitting on the same couch you do, though with a big distance, you sit at one end and he on the other, far far away from you. You know he doesn’t want you here, you saw the look on his face when Eddie had dragged you into his house, a wave of something had washed over his face, something unpleasant, like he wanted to scrunch his face up in disgust at the sight of you – his mind had already erased your little moment at the Sinclair house, last week. Now you are back to normal. He made a comment, you made a comment and now you both sit there, avoiding each other like the plague. 

Secretly, you watch him though. 

Like you always do. 

And what you are seeing now, only fuels your annoyance and your wish to go home. 

The smile on his face that could never be directed at you, is directed at her. The love and the longing in his eyes that always lingers when she is around. She who had stolen his heart from the very first moment they saw each other. She who had always kept his heart even when she left him for the one she is smiling at now. She who will always be the one he will look at. 

You thought that he was over it, you thought that he was over her. But you were a little blind and maybe he was too when he told Robin that he was over her. He never was, he never will be. You saw the way he looked at her when she patched him up after he was attacked. You saw the way he looked at her in the RV. You heard the things he said to her, how he talked about his dreams that he surely saw her in by his side. 

You also heard the things he said about you when he thought that you were sleeping. You still remember how gut wrenching it felt to hear him say things about you to his ex-girlfriend. 

You huff in silence when his lips curl into a smile and his eyes light up when Nancy throws her head back in laughter. 

God, why are you even here? 

Eddie falls into the seat next to you, throwing his arm around your shoulder. It feels as though a cloud of smoke had followed him because suddenly, the smell of snacks, fresh air and beer is replaced by it, along with the smell of his cologne.

Right. You’re here because of him. You don’t know why he feels the urge to drag you along to every group hang out. No one wants you around, you don’t even think that Robin wants you here, she barely talked to you since you came here. And the longer you sit in Steve’s living room, with an untouched can of coke on the table in front of you, surrounded by people who most likely cannot stand you or your presence, you wish more and more that Jason should have dragged you down with him. 

You don’t belong here, you don’t belong anywhere. 

Eddie takes a look around before he turns to you, the smile still lingering, though turning into a softer one when he notices the frown on your face. 

“What’s wrong, sweets?” 

You shake your head a little, trying to give him a smile, “nothing.” 

“Are you feeling okay?” He asks, whispering. 

You wonder if that is the reason why he always wants you around, so he can keep checking up on you, so he can make sure that you are okay, that you are still alive and not lying in some ditch after pushing yourself a little too hard while still recovering from surgery. 

Does he care so much because he knows that no one else would? 

Or does he feel like he owes you something because you helped him when it wasn’t even asked of you? 

You nod, “yeah, I just don’t know why I’m here,” you whisper to him, subtly gesturing to this tight friend group that you don’t fit into. 

Eddie is new to this as well, but unlike you, he’s open and friendly with everyone. He surely isn’t as cheerful as he was weeks back. Just like you, he is still recovering, hiding his inner scars from the face of the earth but still, he is trying. Trying to fit into this, and for him, it’s working, for you? Not so much. 

“Well, you’re here because of me,” he grins, tapping your shoulder. 

You huff but smile, looking down at your hands. 

Yeah, you wouldn’t be here otherwise. 

Had you not gone on a walk that one afternoon a few weeks back, you would have never ran into him. Eddie who had been a wanted man at that time, Eddie who was hiding at skull rock, in drenched clothes and with clattering teeth as he shivered like crazy. You remember how scared he looked when you saw him, how he thought that you would rat him out because at that time, you were nothing but acquaintances to each other. – You bought from him a few times but that was all. He always tried to make small talk, throw a few jokes at you, but at that time, he barely got you to laugh. 

You didn’t believe the rumors on the news, not even for a second, not even when Chrissy used to be a close friend of yours. 

You decided to help him, not knowing what else you were getting yourself into, not knowing that it wasn’t just him involved in a world you hadn’t known of yet, at that time. You got him dry clothes, food and the walkie talkie he had begged you for. 

You never expected Steve Harrington and Dustin Henderson to show up moments later, though. And least of all, you hadn’t expected Max there. It felt like a surreal dream the moment they started explaining everything to you. The moment you found out the truth about Starcourt, about all the deaths in this town, about the lab, about Henry. 

You had only been allowed to be a part of it because of Max, because of your friendship with the girl you had grown protective of, because she let you help. 

The night in the upside down, the night at the Creel house led you here, into this friend group, into Steve’s house where you certainly don’t belong. 

You don’t know what that nagging yet empty feeling in your chest is, if it’s the trauma that is slowly catching up to you or if it’s from watching him watch her, or if you’re just simply having a bad day but it’s making you feel sick and restless, you want the ground to swallow you up. 

You muster up your greatest smile and flash it at Eddie, “yeah, cause you’re my very best friend.”

He snorts at you, hearing the sarcasm in your voice. 

“Your only best friend is Red.” 

You smile at his nickname for Max. 

“Hey Chica, do you wanna smoke this with me?” 

You don’t even pay attention or look up, not until Eddie chuckles and nudges your shoulder, raising his eyebrows at you to look up and when you do, you find Argyle looking at you with a dopey smile on his face as he holds up a blunt to you. 

Without thinking, you get up with a smile on your lips, “is that even a question?” 

It’s been a long time since you have had anything other than medication in your system, you are in dire need of something that will ease your mind and make you feel more than what you are feeling today. 

You fail to notice the disapproving look on Steve’s face, the way he tensely straightens up, slowly getting up as his brows knit together, more and more, watching in disbelief how you make your way over to Argyle. 

“What the hell, Blondie!?” 

His raised voice startles everyone in the room. Robin looks up from the polaroids in her hands, glancing up at her best friend who is staring at you with angry eyes. Nancy and Jonathan turn to look at Steve before they turn to look at what he is glaring at – or who he is glaring at. 

Argyle and Eddie turn to Steve with confusion on their faces. 

And you, you halt in your tracks, and turn back slowly. Caught off guard by the intense look on his face, you freeze. 

“Are you crazy?” 

You open your mouth to speak, though you shut your mouth again when you realize that these words aren’t directed at you, they’re directed at Argyle. 

“She can’t smoke or drink! Her doctor said it loud and clear, and I warned you before!” He points at him. 

You’re taken aback by his anger, by his words. The fact that he remembered when even you, yourself have forgotten about it. You hate the way your heart flutters at that, you hate the way it makes your stomach feel all tingly. You know that it doesn’t mean anything, just because he remembered. 

You see the way Argyle’s face drops and the way he smacks himself on his forehead, “I forgot, I’m sorry, man,” he looks at you, pulling away the blunt he was just about to give to you. “Sorry, he told me… I wasn’t thinking.” He whispers, a little uncomfortably as a funny look takes over his face. 

Steve warned him? 

“Dude, I forgot too, don’t worry about it,” you pat his arm, giving him an apologetic smile. “Don’t mind mother hen over there, he’s overreacting as always.” You say as though you don’t feel your heart racing over Steve’s outburst. 

“And you.” 

You instantly turn to face him, just like everyone else in the room who watches the scene unfold with curiosity and confusion on their faces. 

You meet his hazel eyes, the ones that are still raging. 

“Stop being so fucking careless!” He snaps, pointing his finger at you now. “You’re getting on my goddamn nerves.” 

He places his hands back on his hips, huffing loudly. 

Your cheeks flush under his gaze, you can feel them burning, your heart beating faster and faster. You don’t know how to feel but all you can think about now is the look in his eyes when he realized that he hurt you back at Lucas’s place the other day, the words he had said to you. 

Despite the giddiness inside of you, you hide your feelings behind a smirk. 

“Wow, you do worry about me, Harrington. You weren’t lying.” 

He squints his eyes at you, nodding at your words with another huff. He pinches the bridge of his nose, shaking his head. 

Everyone is looking between the two of you, waiting for the bickering to start, the way it always does, but Steve manages to bite his tongue. 

And you surprise the others by holding back your little remarks. 

“And fucking relax, leave Argyle alone, he isn’t responsible for me and neither are you, Lego head. Go and get high, you need to calm down.” 

Jonathan snorts at the nickname, he throws his head back, chuckling loudly as he mumbles ‘Lego head’. Argyle, who already had one too many drags of the blunt he passed around before, is barely holding himself together, threatening to burst into laughter too. 

Steve shoots Jonathan a glare, pointing at him to shut up. 

Nancy looks down, pressing her lips together with an amused look in her eyes. 

Eddie drinks his beer, hiding the smirk behind the can, scratching the back of his neck. 

“Sit your ass down, Blondie and drink your goddamn coke, don’t even think about weed or–”

“No weed, no beer, just fucking coca cola, got it, mom,” you roll your eyes at him and slump back in your previous seat, crossing your arms over your chest. 

He sighs loudly, sitting back down as well, he crosses his legs, giving you the side eye. 

“Goddamn brat,” he mumbles under his breath. 

“I heard that.” 

“Good,” he snaps at you. 

There is no tension in the room, not even awkwardness after this weird moment. If anything, everyone is still amused. 

“Always bickering like an old married couple,” Eddie snickers. 

Steve glares at him, and you, you would have dug your elbow into his side, but he is wounded and still healing. The band aids on his neck are the evidence that they are still bad. He is hiding him, and you wonder if he always will, you ask yourself if he will hide his pain the way you hide yours. 

You don’t even notice that Robin left the room, only when everyone moves on from what just happened and chatter fills the space again, do you take a look around. You furrow your brows when you find her spot empty. 

Argyle and Jonathan leave the room, stepping out into the garden with Nancy following close behind. 

“Are you still in for tomorrow?” You hear Eddie, directing his question at Steve. 

“Yeah, sure.”

You don’t bother to ask and find out what their plans are. 

Robin walks back into her room, with something in her hand. Her eyes are aimed at you, a smile on her lips when she walks towards you. She hands you a drink, a diet pepsi. 

“Here.” 

Your lips part as you stare at the can for a long moment, blinking. You tilt your chin up, looking up at her with big eyes. 

Her smile falls and a frown takes over, “shit, I thought you liked diet pepsi? Was it original?” 

You shake your head at her, taking the can from her hand, “n-no, it’s diet pepsi.” 

She paid attention to you. 

She smiles at you. 

She felt bad watching you sit there and being unable to drink beer or smoke weed with the others. And she remembers that you always asked for pepsi when you were still in the hospital, you hated the teas there and despised the fact that you were only allowed water. 

“I thought you liked coke, Blondie.”

Robin rolls her eyes at Steve. 

“It’s not my favorite,” you shrug, turning to look at him. “I prefer pepsi.” 

He squints his eyes at you, “so when you stole my coke the other day, you did it just to–”

“Get back at you, yeah. Cause you stole my coffee.” 

“When did he steal your coffee?” Robin asks. 

“When I came to family video to rent a movie–”

“Oh, you little liar,” Steve scoffs at you, “she did not rent a movie, she didn’t even come to look for one.”

A smirk tugs at your lips, if there’s something that you love more than the drink in your hand, it’s to get on his nerves. 

“Says who? I really wanted one but the customer service sucks when this one isn’t around,” you point at Robin. 

Eddie chuckles, turning to look at Steve who is glaring at you, before a smirk appears on his face, his hazel eyes twinkling with smugness. 

“You and I both know that you didn’t want to rent a movie, honey. You were there because you wanted to see me,” he says, cockily as he lets his eyes move from your face, down to your body and back up to meet your eyes. 

Your breath gets caught in your throat at the way he just looked at you. You don’t squirm in your seat, but you surely would if the others weren’t around. You grow flustered beneath his stare but you have come to learn how to hide it – Steve Harrington will never see you blushing over him. 

Maybe he was right, maybe you did just want to see him, because you always do, you always want to see him. No matter how much he hates you, no matter how much he despises you, you can’t help but want him, even if you continue to lie about it to yourself to stay sane. 

Steve Harrington had always been your demise – from the first glance. 

You couldn’t help but grow fascinated with him, watching him from afar with eyes the shape of your favorite sunglasses. You couldn’t help but care for him, even when he couldn’t stand you. 

Sometimes you feel like a creep, watching him and adoring everything about him, from his sun kissed skin, to his beautiful eyes, to his perfect hair, to that one smile that he blesses only those around him that he cares about – something that you will never get. 

Sometimes it’s hard to look into his eyes because every time you do look for a little too long, you feel like dying because suddenly, you see the world with different eyes, you see something beautiful, because he is in it and when you look away, when he is gone, it feels anything but.

Steve wouldn’t even bat an eye if you were gone. He wouldn’t even notice if you weren’t around. 

Suddenly, you feel overwhelmed by the way he looks at you, by his presence, by all of this. You are in his space, you are invading, his home, his friend group, his safe place. The reminder of it, that you don’t belong here, lies heavy on your heart and you feel the urge to run away but you cannot give yourself away so easily, knowing that it would be awfully noticeable if you suddenly left after what he just said. 

So you put on a mask, the way you always do. 

“If that helps you sleep at night,” you smirk, tilting your head at him, “I mean no one else would come to see you, I took pity on you.” 

He clenches his jaw, his smirk falling into a frown. 

“Keep your pity to yourself, Blondie. I’d rather never see you again than see you when I don’t have to.”

You know how he feels about you, you know what he thinks of you, yet every single insult, every jab at you feels like a punch to your gut. But this, this was a punch to your heart. 

You know he wouldn’t grieve you if you died at the Creel house, but to know that he might have felt relieved to never having to see you again, hurts you more than you want to admit. 

“What the hell, man?” Eddie snaps at him as his brown eyes fill with anger at his words. 

Robin rolls her eyes, shaking her head at Steve in disappointment. 

But he keeps his eyes on you, struggling to read you, struggling to look past that smirk that is still going strong. 

“Well, I’ll put you out of your misery, Lego head,” you say as you place the drink on the table before you get up. 

Robin furrows her brows, looking you up and down, “what are you doing?” 

“I’m leaving.” You try not to sound bitter or hurt. “I’m getting tired and I forgot my meds at home.” 

Steve looks away from you, feeling a rush of guilt. 

“I’ll drive you–”

You cut Eddie off, shaking your head at him, “no, I’m gonna walk, I need some fresh air.”

Eddie looks at you worriedly, “sweets, I don’t want you to walk by yourself.”

“Eddie, I’m okay, I don’t get dizzy anymore,” you say, trying to smile at him. “I promise, I’ll call you later tonight.” 

He still looks unsure, not wanting to let you go like this. 

But he can tell that you want to be alone, right now, so despite his worry, he leans back again and nods begrudgingly. 

“Okay..” 

You walk out of the room, biting back the bitterness on your tongue, trying to swallow down the pain. You rush through the hallway and open the door, you only manage to take one step out before you hear footsteps behind you. 

You roll your eyes, knowing that Eddie being the stubborn guy that he is will try to convince you to stay, but when you turn around, it’s not Eddie’s brown eyes that you find yourself looking into, it’s Steve’s and it catches you off guard a little. 

He stops in front of you, his eyes scan your face and he huffs a little when he runs his fingers through his hair. 

If you didn’t know better, you’d think it’s guilt and worry in his eyes. 

You hold onto the door, ready to escape whatever pain he will put you through again.

“Listen uh, that was mean,” he starts, now struggling to look into your eyes. He squeezes his eyes shut for a moment, tugging at his hair. “I shouldn’t have said that.” 

You blink.

You swallow as you keep on looking at him with smugness, to hide the pain. 

“It’s okay, no need to hide the truth from me, you were just saying what you were feeling, right?” 

He opens his eyes and when he faces you again, he looks at you, really looks at you. He tries to find a hint of pain in your features or hurt in your eyes, but there is nothing. All he can see is the coldness in them. 

Nothing he could ever do or say would hurt you – at least, that is what he believes, what he always believed. 

“Right.” 

You bite the insides of your cheeks. 

“Good,” you nod and you tear your eyes away from him, unable to look at him any longer as you feel your heart cracking more and more.

“Y-You don’t have to go, Blondie.” He stops you once again, holding himself back from taking your hand. 

You slowly turn around and he still struggles to read you, even when you stop smirking, even when you only look at him with a straight face, not saying anything back. 

“But if you want to leave, no one’s gonna stop you.”

You see the indifference in his eyes, the coldness that is only there when he looks at you. 

Yeah, you know no one would. 

How can you care so much about someone that cares so little about you? 

How can you want him so bad when all he wants for you is to disappear? 

How can he worry one second and hate you in the other? 

How can you long for him after every hurtful thing that he said to you? 

You take a step away from him, blinking as you feel your eyes starting to burn. 

“Bye, Steve.” 

You turn around before he can even open his mouth, and you slam the door shut behind you because you don’t want to hear his voice. 

You walk away with tears in your eyes. 

You wish you didn’t come here today, every moment spent with him makes you want him even more, makes you hate yourself even more. 

You don’t go home, no, you can’t stand to be in a house that resembles nothing but loss. 

You turn the other way, towards Hawkins cemetery. 

You just need to vent. 

Even if only into the void. 

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[thaleleah]

awe yeah your mom was vulnerable and stepshit took advantage of that 😭 dw tal, your person will come at the right time 🩷

ikrrr his dick needs to be snipped 😂 man is almost 80 years old, it's nastyyy

my stepmom is a literal child, she actually throws tantrums it's actually so fucking embarrassing. a literal slipper 😂 now i'm worried cause are you gonna hit your 2 year old like that if he acts up or doesn't listen to you? LOL tal ilyyy for not liking my dad either cause he doesn't deserve it! too little too late

omg you write for avatar too? 👀 look at you go girl! what's the avatar fandom like? it seems like it's chill and drama free. the reason i starting watching avatar was because of jack 😂 i'm a huge scream fan so i needed to see what else this man has been in and was so surprised he was in avatar 2, i actually didn't recognize him because of the hair but he still looked so fine! i need to rewatch avatar 1 and 2 because i actually really enjoyed it! and the cgi is amazinggg (much better than marvel) - and yes ghostface is so fucking hot, especially in the new one, i think cause it was more serious and the mask was like decayed. ughh i have a predator/prey kink too it's just so so hot! getting chased and hunted by those two was soooo ughhh! can you tell i only have a thing for villains? the heros barely capture my heart 😂 look and you and both simping for tom and jack; we have amazing taste in men 🩷

i'm so glad you got some writing done and it didn't feel forced, never force yourself, tal 🥰 you got this babe 🩷

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Babes, the way I tried to respond to your ask TWICE with a rant about how my stepdad must want me to hit him with my car because of how he treated my mom this weekend on her birthday weekend, and Tumblr closed out on me both times without saving my long af rant. SOOOOO maybe that's the universe trying to tell me to let that shit go. Which, like, okay. But . . . OOOOO THAT SHIT MADE ME SO MAD. So, anyway - thanks for listening to me tell you about a rant I would have made you read had Tumblr not told me no twice lmaooo

I feel so sorry for the two year old. Hopefully your stepmom will refrain from being a vile evil bitch to him. At least I hope. And yes, nothing your dad does could ever make me like him. Fuck that man lol

I doooooo write for Avatar! Avatar is the only fandom that I've consistently been in for nearly my whole life and I can't ever see it going away. I have such huge respect for James Cameron cause the world that he's created is just so amazing and beautiful and the detail and meaning of it all has me in constant awe. I could literally watch the movies over and over again and never get tired of them. December 2025 can't come soon enough for A3, I'm practically vibratingggggg. The fandom is def not chill and drama free though, especially on the smuttier side. It's actually been super toxic recently which is really disappointing cause I feel like Avatar is one of the fandoms that should be the least problematic but...here we are. My mutuals get tons of anon hate messages daily and sometimes there's even drama between accounts. Thankfully, I haven't had to deal with as much bullshit as they have since I'm a smaller blog, but I have gotten my fair share too. I know it really doesn't matter what fandom you're in, all fandoms have haters and most writers or artists get nasty messages, but it still sucks. All my mutuals are great though and they remind me of why I started being active in the fandom in the first place when things get a little too rough. Some people write some good Spider fics since you're a Jack Champion fan 👀

Love youuuuu 🥰